Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mistery, today is a gift... thats why they call it the Present.

I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,  
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you're not around,
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
Not even close,
Not even a little bit,
Not even at all.

Dearest reader,
I found some things on this wonderful world called "Internet". I thought you might like it...
I posted pictures, songs and some poems and texts... So well, enjoy?

Rivers in my face
a bleeding heart inside

thats what you left right here

right here by my side

WHEN THE POWER OF LOVE OVERCOMES THE LOVE OF POWER, the world will meet peace.

http://bitchimastar.tumblr.com <3
http://iwabt.blogspot.com <3
http://9gag.com <3

The path you take is the path you choose. The day you doubt is the day you'll lose.

I wrote a poem,
a lovely poem, 
but forgot the words it had...
I wrote a poem,
A lovely poem,
but remembered what it said:

I LOVE YOU <'3

something in between

Dearest reader,
I usually don't read a lot of books.. Why? I don't know. Never felt appealed to them I think.
But today it's diffrent. We had to read a book for english class, and I have a book called "Go ask Alice". I've read the first 5 pages, and I couldn't stop..
I really think y'all should read it.. I don't know why I start recommending books so suddenly, but hmh..
Just read it for me kay?  


Love and Joy <3

PS : For those who are interested; http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Go_Ask_Alice

No life for sure..

Dearest reader,


do you have those moments? 
Those moments, you feel so lost in this big world?
You want to mean something, but you are just a human.
You are just one of the 7 bilion people that live on this earth.
It feels like you are just here to  be here; Be born, live, and die.
You feel like there is nothing that really is yours, something no one has or can.
You think you have no life, thats for sure.


xJillx

Some puberty-pictures

Shit.

Dearest reader,
today I tried to make a poem, but it totally failed.... I need some help with this, so please mail me with any suggestions ! Thank you.

One look in the mirror

I see two diffrent girls, it seems..

one exists flesh and bones

the other one just dreams

I see a girl that wants to live

but doesn't have a life

Keeps doing things people want

no dreams, no wish, no strive

I see a girl that laughs all day

and never ever cries

It's good that no one knows

that those facts are all lies

Tomorrow I will try to make another post, but I don't have enough time to post twice a day, as I usually did... And another thing, I think I have a block or something. I can't write or sing or dream anymore.. I don't know what it is. Maybe my environment has changed me... I don't know. Guess that puberty, again... Fuck you puberty Sorry for that, dearest reader..


Love and Joy <3

Sorry

Dearest reader,
"Sorry" is such a nice word, being used by others who only profit of that. 
But now, this word is necessary. 
I have to say sorry.
sorry for abandoning you,
and sorry for not posting anymore.
I hope I will post as soon as possible, that will probably be friday or saturday...
I am sorry, dearest reader.

Luck

Dearest reader,
yesterday I wrote a little poem.. I rhyme a lot when I... actually, I write poems every day.... This one isn't finished yet, but here is the beginning;

Luck can fall down on you
like a drop of rain
on your shoulder, it splashes
I know, it sounds insane

that luck's something you can touch
is something we don't know
and when we look at our loved once
luck can even glow

Now close your eyes and think of me
and with a bit of luck
......
......
(this piece I still have to make up...)

Love and Joy

Just me. Again. Down here.

Dear reader,
I just said to someone: "I'm just me."
And thats who I am. No need to spend more words to "introduce myself".
I am just me.
But if I'm proud of that, thats a story I'll save for the next time...
Love and ... well, nothing but love <3

Trollface

Dearest reader,
have you ever been familiar with the feeling of loneliness? Yes, me too. Well, figuratively at least.
First I want you guys to know that I have an amazing family, I really do. But like every family, we have our moments that we're mad at eachother, or we want to yell...
Just a few moments ago, there was one.
Let me explain ; 
My brother and mother call me a "troll" since 1 and a half year. When they started it, I cried a lot. It is never fun when your family bullies you. 
They kept continuing, even though I had said them they had to stop, because I couldn't laugh about it. After a while I started to pretend I didn't care. Like I didn't hear it. although my soul started screaming and going crazy, my body remained silent and still.
But yesterday my mother posted a reaction on my picture, and to keep it short;  she called me a troll again.
After months of never react to that word, I freaked out. Just couldn't take it anymore. So during dinner I told my mom I wouldn't want that. She said sorry, but kept laughing. I had enough.
I did what every innoscent little girl would do ; I ran to my room and cried for the first time in months.
But I still love them.
I still love my family, and they love me back. And I know that.


I don't know what it is, but in recent times, I am struggling quite a lot with my feelings and emotions. Sometimes I feel extremely happy, and one minute later I am so angry I want to scream!




I guess, or I hope it is, puberty.
And there we are again, back to the beginning. Puberty. 
That's where this all started isn't it? 


So dearest puberty,
Please be over as soon as possible...

☀ Keep shining 'till the end ☀

Dear puberty

Dear puberty,
Why are you so complicated, yet so fascinating? 
I'd prefer to say you've brought me nothing but pain, but that is not true. 

You let me experience the true feeling called love. 
But it has cost me my heart.
You made my dreams so life like and so beautiful.
But I started to behold them for truth.
You made me choose like an adult.
But I've made the wrong ones.
You made me feel so free and independent,
But I've hurt my family and friends.
You ruined my life,
But made it far more interesting.

Dear puberty,
Why are you so complicated, yet so fascinating?

No words needed.

Some weird shit thrown together

Dearest reader,
I'm changing my blog. It's not about my life anymore. It's about life.
Yes, dearest reader, those are two diffrent things. And you know that.
I found out that the true reason why I started this blog is actually easy to explain;
I want to share thoughts and feelings (yes boys, feelings.) with the world. And not only mine. Here, just a few words away, you can see what I thought today.


I'm a 14 year old girl, that wants to be special, but I'm not. And I know that. 
But because I pretend to be special, people start to believe my big lie. And I know that. 
Now, be honest, we've all done anything we didn't want to. 
Wether thats going to the mall with your parents while you didn't want to,
or having an intimate moment with a boy or girl you never even wanted to meet.
So you lied. And you knew that.
We all lie. Sometimes it's a big lie, sometimes a small one. Against ourselves. Against others. And we know that.
Our world is based on lies, and we can't change that. The only way to soften the pain, is to tell more lies. 
And we know that.
Have you noticed? We know that. We know our lies. And thats what makes us strong. Thats what makes any lie a fact. 
So I am special. I love my life. I don't want to change anything about myself. I am perfect. And I know that.

See what I just did there?

Welcome, again, to my blog, dearest reader.

In sovjet-Russia.......

Hello (again) !
Here is another story of my boring life. I decided to post less, because of time trouble and boring days. 
Tomorrow my school will start again, after a 5 day weekend.... that will be 3 days of suffering in class, watching the rain fall down on the windows and waiting for the bell to ring...
Sooo... Tonight my friend came over, we had a sleep over hahaha. Went to bed at half past 2... I'm so friggin' tired right now! 

I dont know if I told y'all yet, but when I start up Chrome, the first thing I see is my blog stats. And guess what ? I even had views from RUSSIA! I mean thats almost the other side of the world! So cool... Thanks blokes, for supporting me and my awesome stories about this awesome life! (UCHE UCHE..)


And, I just remembered, I promised to post some things about girls, so the boys in our company can finally understand us. Because I have to study now, I'll post that later this day, probably around 4 o'clock.. Is that okay ? 
Well, Love and Joy <3

PS. For all our beloved Russian friends: (not to hurt, just fun  )

Those boys...

Dearest reader,
Today one of my friends in Danmark sent me the link of his blog. I read it, and had no words left to type, say, or even think.
Here is his link ; http://iwabt.blogspot.com/
It's beautiful. I think y'all should read it..
I thought boys had less emotion than a rock but they actually can be very sensitive. 
To reward every boy on this planet, I'll be posting some things for boys to understand us girls.
So if you have any specific questions, then leave a comment and I'll answer them!


Love and Joy <3

Oh gosh..

Goodmorning my dearest reader!
I see you visit my blog again? Thanks!
So today and tomorrow we are free from school. So I'm sitting here in my sloppy pants waiting for my friend to text me (I lost my diary so I dont know the homework ;p).
Right now I'm watching www.9gag.com ! So true .... Hahahahaahha!

We have a big economy test coming up, so I'd better study, but I don't want to!!
Ah gosh this is bad...... Well I'll see you later!
Love and joy <3

Falling Damage...

Good day y'all!

Oh my god my whole body hurts 
So I went snowboarding yesterday (my brother got a day in a skicenter for his birthday) and it was so cool! 

We left at 9 o'clock in the morning and came home at half past 10 (thats actually the reason I didn't post yesterday). I took a lession, because this was only the second time I was standing on a snowboard. My teacher was HOT! But yeah, all those teachers are ...
So today I woke up and I could hardly move my arms and legs... So yeah.


Oh and by the way ; Happy Easter Everbody!


Love and Joy <3

Todays day.

Hello boys 'n girls!
Today I have some special announcements....

1. It's my brothers birthday! So we woke him up with this song >>
2. I FINALLY CLEANED MY ROOM! Do you want to know what it looks like ? Wait I'll post some pictures later...

3. Our friends (who live far away and we hardly see them...) are coming over today! 
4. Yesterday I went shopping with my mom. We baught these awesome pants >>


Now I'm gonna eat some cake , so I'll see you!



Love and Joy <3


PS. Here are the pictures of my room. Look at the clean desk!!! (Clean... Clean... It's what you call "Clean" Jill....)

Wait... Wut ?!

Hello my fellow human beings!
I just found out that yesterday I got 56 views! Thanks so much! I just thought this blog was fun and no one would like to know, but everyday more and more people read this! Thanks y´all!
So... Right now I´m at school. There´s an english test coming up... Wish me luck please (could use some).
I dunno if I told this in my introducing post, but I like my school life. Accept the learning and homework part, but thats obvious I guess? 
I have lots of friends on my.... Wait my friend is trying to pretend she is our Economy teacher.. Looks pretty good actually hahaha! 
Well, Imma go for now, I'll try to post this afternoon, but I don't know If I have time for that. I have to get ...
WAIT BYE X

Update

Heyy y'all!
I made an imporant decision. It's about how often I'll post.
For now, I will try to post twice a day. Sometimes this will be less, sometimes this will be more. But approximately twice a day.. so.. yeah, twice.. okay.
I hope y'all are happy?
Well, now I'm off to dinner, I'm eating pizza! On tuesday I always have Handball practice, so bye!
Love and peace <3

Second Day As Me.

Hello dearest!

I see you visit my blog (again) ? Thank you for that !
Today another boring day at school. My laptop (we got school laptops, wich we almost never use for school...) fell off because the battery was empty, so I couldn't entertain myself with watching fun stuff on facebook and other sites.
I did check MSN-today and I saw some awesome shoes! That braught me to the idea that I shouldn't only post about life and casual things, but also about fashion and maybe some "Understand-A-Womans-Body-Tips" for boys! I really think they need those...


Well here are some first things I want to show y'all. Here in my city we have a little shop called Miss Coquiness. It's a very cheap store and they have awesome clothes, shoes and accesoires, wich are not only for women and girls, but also for men and boys. Officially the store is french, but they have an english site too ;
http://www.misscoquines.com/uk/
Note : All the prices are in pounds. To get the prices in any other currency, go to http://www.x-rates.com/calculator.html .. It will "translate" the money for you.


And while I was shopping on the site, I saw these AWESOME shoes I just HAD to have. (Link: http://www.misscoquines.com/uk/shoes/short-boots/trendy-ankle-boots-with-turn-over.html ; €25,50)
 So I went whining by my dad .
Now I'm still waiting for his approval..... Wich me luck!

Love and joy <3

Introducing me

Hello again dear person,

I just (actually like 3 hours ago but that doesn't matter...) got back from dinner, we ate smoe kind of fish and rice. I loved that dish!
And while I was eating, I remembered that I haven't kinda introduced myself yet. So here it comes ;
So errm, y'all know my name. Thats Jill. I live in a city in Holland called Arnhem. Anyone been there before? I don't think so... I'm 14 years old and I'm actually kinda ordinary, nothing unusual about me. 
I have two passions ; Singing and acting. Ofcourse I hope like every other teenage girl to get rich and known with my passions one day, but I also know like every realistic human that that can't be. So yeah, that's that.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qt11Lg4MJ9I (just to warm y'all up)

I love to eat (sorry.....) and I love to hang out with friends.
I have a small room with colourfull paperhangings (or whats the english word?)
I keep my mind messy enough with this ;
Its a bord filled with everything I have to remember or forget..
I'm in the 3th grade of the Dutch school system (when you are 4 years old, you go to primary school, 'till 8th grade. Then you go to high school for (depending on wich level you do, I do Gymnasium) 6 years, and right now I am in that 3th year).
I do only 1 sport called Handball. I even have a vest with my own name on it!
 I know you want one...... >:)
I have my mom, dad and a brother. He is in his final year from High School. Actually I think I deserve a price for having the messiest desk in the country.. An hour after I cleaned it it looks like this again; 
I've made some sites and stuff before, but never a blog. I have tumblr (http://bitchimastar.tumblr.com/)
and Facebook (I might make a special account when this block starts to get populair). For the Dutchies here:
Ik heb een petitie (je weet wel, zo'n handtekeningenactie) gemaakt over geen/minder huiswerk in weekenden. Onderteken die even als je wilt! http://www.axci.nl/index.php?petitie=18880!!

 Well actually thats everything I think y'all want to know? If you want to know anything else, just leave a comment!


Love and joy <3

First Time

Heyy everybody!
This is my first post on my new blog "No Life For Sure" or "NLFS". I decided to make this blog because... well, I don't know. I just felt like it. I'll be posting every once in a while some boring stories about my life here (in Holland), and what I do. 
I can't tell you how often I'll post, I think once in a week or month, depending on my private life.
I think text won't be the only thing I'm going to post. I'll be uploading short movies and pictures and stuff...
like this one 

I know what y'all are thinking.. And yep... I'm a girl and I visit http://9gag.com/ too! I'm pathetic.... And I love it!


Btw, A few days ago I saw this movie ; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jkEvbOsr138
It actually overwelmed me. I mean, I think a lot of people knew Eddsworld (if not, buy a gun and shoot yourself..) and know that Edd didn't deserve to die. And especially not by cancer.
So I added a point to my Do before you die list; 









Oh yeah , and that's my handwriting. I hope y'all can read it, because I think this won't be the last time you'll see it!  


Enjoy your day, for as long as it will last...
Love and Joy <3