Raindrops and tears

Dearest reader,
because of a vacation (I didn't even want to go on) I couldn't write for a while...
Life here is just as boring as it always was, accept now I can look forward to our exchange (wich is in 2weeks!) 
I'm really happy to know that I will see our exchange students again.
They are all so nice! Especially the boys... But I don't know what it is with not-dutch boys, they're all so good looking, smart, cool, sportive....


AARRRGGHH
I don't want to live in Holland anymore ! 
The weather always sucks, the boys are ugly and weird....
GRRRR
This country is so small, so boring.. Dutch people mean nothing to the world! 
I feel like I don't belong in holland....
Do you know that feeling ? Or is it just me ?
Thats why I made plans, to live half a year in the USA. Just to see what it's like. 
I 'll probably miss my family and friends so much I want to come home, thats why it's only for half a year.
I really should learn for a test right now, but I just can't concentrate.. 
The last 2 months I really fucked school up. I failed a few tests and I hate that, but it's my own fault.
I just don't want to whaste god damn 17 years of my valuable life on school?!
I just.... PLEASE SOMEONE UP THERE 
I THINK I'M BECOMING CRAZY HERE!
I DON'T WANT TO BE LOCKED UP...