empty & tired

Dearest reader,
a little late update (it's ten to half past eleven here..) but I just felt like it.
A lot of people think I'm mad at them, and at some people I am... but some people not. And it really annoys me that people keep thinking I'm angry while I'm not!
I really don't know what I do wrong. It seems like the whole world just leaves me here, alone, suffocating in my own self suffering.

I know I shouldn't complain, because there are people who have a waaayy worse life than me.. but I just can't help it.
My brain knows there are people that care about me, but in my heart it's so empty.
No other heart really loves me.
No other heart really likes me, as a friend.
And it feels empty.
litterally.
Today I hang out with a few people who do like me, and I just did normal,
and for some moments I forgot my sad mood. Wich really made me happy.
but then something was said and poof.
gone happiness.
hello sadness.
hello emptyness
hello fucking world.
I hope yuo get better.

And now, goodnight fucking world.
I'm T.I.R.E.D.



[T]orn apart [I]nsecure [R]eally good at faking a smile, [E]xtremely sad, [D]rowning in my tears.